Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Video games and drawing

So that's pretty much what's getting me busy in these goddamn hot summer days. Cause man, when you don't have what to do all day, even if it's fun like shit you can get pretty damn bored ... So I talked with one of my relatives who has a more wide access to video games than me and he's gonna bring me some of the video games I want, but can't find for shit here.
Also I've been practicing face anatomy lately, sketching a lot, so my drawings started to have a more realistic look than before (cause drawing only anime for about 2-3 years slowed me down a lot in my progress of becoming better and better at drawing. Fuck.), fact that gets me pretty damn happy.
So yeah. That would be all the amazing news . School starts again in about 1 month.. . . I'm not really looking forward for that.

Thursday, July 19, 2012


Well I've been sitting on my ass summer... And pretty much playing MMORPGs,  watching The Walking Dead (awesome ass series, can't wait for season 3 !!!) and Cold Case (I watched some episodes before, but now I'm trying to watch it from the first season to the last one).
I'm thinking of taking some art classes when school starts... From a club that's rolling in my city. I need some pro shit , to learn something better than I can on the interwebs, like I did all this time.
Also ...my sad anti-social ass is going out with some classmates...Get myself a nice cup of coffee... I love coffee. xD
Well that would be all. Boring as always...

Friday, June 29, 2012

So ...summer break.

Pretty much that.
I had some serious business exams this week and now that it's all over...I can relax and enjoy myself till September, when school starts again.
Got myself a fresh new PC that works wonderful. So I'm ripping them MMORPGs right now. Especially Perfect World International. That game is goddamn awesome. I played it a couple of years ago before my old PC died and got that piece of crap I just replaced.
But then I wasn't pretty smart and I wasn't able to play a goddamn MMORPG for shit. xD But now that I got smarter the game got really really fun .

Well that would be all.

Monday, June 18, 2012

Friday, May 25, 2012

Back from the hospital.

So yeah, I'm back from the hospital. Today was the 4th day I spent in there.
So, lemme tell you how it all went:
Sunday night I got a cold so I didn't go to school on Monday. Then I treated my cold like any other cold I ever had, but something I didn't know is that I started being allergic to some pills I took when I was sick to the stomach, so I took some of those on Monday (2 actually).
On Monday night my jaws would just close, simply my face muscles would just contract and then I would just yawn (my muscles would fuck around with my face again here) ...So that kinda freaked out my momma. Then later I couldn't breath right, which freaked the living hell out of my mother, so she took me to the hospital.
There the doctor first said I had pneumonia, then that the jaw problem was all in my head. So he told me to stay at the hospital over night.
But when I was trying to sleep, my jaws would again fuck around and I would really really sick and all that, so I tried going to the bathroom. On my way back, one nurse saw all in pain and asked me if I was OK and all that. I told her I was feeling sick and then I explained her all my symptoms , so she thought I had problems with the calcium in my body, so she gave me some of that. But it didn't do shit. Then she decided to take me to a doctor.
 The doctor found what was my problem in like 5 minutes. She got me hooked up on a perfusion all night .
I fell asleep at around...4am.
At 6am I woke up, feeling great. Stayed in that room for a couple of hours, and then I got moved to the room where I stayed all these 4 days.
First day was terrible, it was so fucking boring I think I went mad in there.
Second day I got depressed like shit because I thought that since I was feeling better the doctors would let me go. But then they started to treat my cold and told me that I would have to stay in the hospital till Friday. So yeah...Wednesday was a really sucky day.
Third day I kinda got used with the idea that I'll have to go home on Friday and got myself bored to death there...
The Friday (aka today) I got scared to shit when a nurse told me something like "You won't go home today, it's way too early!".
But earlier , before that my doctor told me I could go home later, so now I was confused for shit. So I waited and I found out at about 1pm that I actually I could go home.

So I waited till around 4pm when I could finally go home.
Glad it's all fucking over.

Monday, April 30, 2012


So today I went out with a couple of mates, walked around the city, went through the park...Etc.
And I caught a cold...But thats not important.
What's important is this song, which made me cry my eyes out:
 Gloomy Sunday (written by  Rezső Seress and performed by Sarah McLachlan )

I'm too tired to talk about its awesomeness...and how popular it is...
But really...Listen to it. It's amazing.

Friday, April 27, 2012

Easy peasy school

So today I went to school (no shit) ...It was all normal, first class math...Knew what to do. Sweet.
Then at biology we went to the laboratory where our teacher came and told us that if we want, she can talk to a couple of our teacher to let us skip the classes so we can clean the lab, since there is some biology teacher conference... I don't know what shit.
So me and a couple of other girls decided to stay there and clean the lab.
It all started peachy, a couple of pieces of cloth and some cleaning stuff...substance (my brain derps now)... ... But then we cleaned the lab...For 3 hours... 3...fucking...hours....

Man...me and my classmates are fucked in the head... One of my classmates had to clean the...pickled beings in jars....And there was a fetus in one jar. She moved the jar, the things head started to move so she points it out. We all started to fucking laugh like a bunch of reres...Derp inhaling and all that. Our teacher was looking at us like she was thinking something like " I've got a bunch of psychos on my head... Fuck..."
I pity her.

But we did do a good job, tho. The lab was all shiny as fuck after we were done. Jars and models and all that shit in order...All good in the hood.

Nice green plants all clean, blackboard was shiny... Neat.

And then we did chemistry  class...I don't really like chemistry...Even if my poppa is a chemist...But shhh, that's another story...

And as I said in another post...My weekend is gonna be all long as fuck, so yuppy-di-doo... ;D

Currently watching Psychadelicsnake playing Lone Survival...or Surviving...I don't know.
Gotta do about 3 drawings on Gaia Online. Yaaays.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

School and long weekend

So yeah...School started this Tuesday and not Monday.
Also we're free next Monday and Tuesday so yeah! Thank goodness I'm gonna be pretty free these days.
 Listening to Emilie Autumn and loving it. I just fell in love with her song "Let the Record Show"

She's one of my anti-drugs...Or I guess she did become a drug to me, because there is no day I don't listen to a Emilie Autumn song.

Been listening to some Mindless Self Indulgence too these days. Forgot how much fun they are.

Schools kinda easy now...Lessons aren't killing me and I actually manage to understand math...And I'm retarded at math, so thats good.
A part of my gums hurt. D: Ffff...Must be cause of the cold wind.

Well that would be all the news for now...I got a couple of commissions to do. Pretty depressed these days, I don't know why tho. Ow well...


Monday, April 16, 2012


Yep, I'm drawing a lot lately! Got a bunch of commissions on Gaia Online these days...
My hand hurts.
I still gotta do my homework. Meh...Its not that big (just see me in a couple of days crying my eyes out over lots and lots of books and notebooks, doing my homework).
And I just made myself a Tumbrl, and deleted it.
D:< Blogger never asked me to post pictures and change my avatar and follow people.
That's why I love you Blogger, that's why I love you.

My dA. If you wanna see the stuff I'm drawing right now... ;D
Beware, it might just burn your eyes.

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Drawing and being bored...

So yeah...thats my life right now...I draw a lot...and I'm bored a lot...
Also I sleep a lot...and eat a lot... . _ . Like the awesome teenager I am...

Well the Easter holidays kinda messed up my program and all that... xD I sleep more, I got to bed later, I wake up later...I eat more . D: I GET FATTER!

Anyslut...I'm glad I'm free from school 2 weeks! ;D
Tho tomorrow 1/4 of my holiday is gone...WHY ARE THE DAYS PASSING BY SO FUCKING FAST?! D:

Friday, March 30, 2012

So today...

 We watched the movie "The Reader". And man, its was beautiful. It made me cry multiple times and it's the only thing I can think about since I saw it. It was deep, and sad and ...fuck it was good.
 But next to me was my fake-ass classmate talking about how boring the movie is and etc. I mean WHAT? Boring? I wasn't bored 1 minute while watching it!
And another classmate of mine kept saying that all the movie is about Hanna and Michael making love. Just...Did you not pay attention to the screen for at least 5 minutes? Didn't you see the dramas those people were living? What they felt?
Idiots kept talking and talking and talking... But still, the movie was amazing.

And it made my depression return. But it was worth it.  ಠ ‿ ಠ 

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

So damn bored lately...

Well, at least school is gonna be easy from now on. 3 days of normal school , 1 week of 'different' school  (I don't know how to call it, its like, we go to school, but we do other shit than the regular, no serious classes. Its supposed to be all chill.)
And then 2 weeks free cause of the Easter holidays.
Yaaayz. :D

Monday, March 5, 2012

Artistic moment?

So yeah, I was just googleing around stuffs and I found a fairy painting made by Sophie Gengembre Anderson...And ow boy how I loved it!
I mean, its amazing, the softness and...EVERYTHING, the faces, hair, details...

Also discovered this week the wonderful band (duo) CocoRosie. You should really check'em out.

Friday, March 2, 2012


I was just chilling, listening to The Midnight Beast when the kitchen door opened so slow and creepy...MY GOD I nearly pissed my pants...So going to sleep right now...

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Being bored...

Just recovered from a horrible cold that held me in bed 1 whole week.
Now I got school and sadness....School and sadness...
I'm having a depression again...Cheer up emo kid? I'm just sick of it all...Of this world, its people and all the shit that's surrounding me. For fuck's sake...I'm having moments like this more and more often. I'm just...tired of being disappointed and just...sick and tired of everything. I really miss the days when I was all happy happy joy joy (like when I was 11? I started being all hyper-sad and all that at around 12 and it's been that way since then).
Can't wait for the weekend.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Just something that made my day

A young woman is sitting on a bench, at night, in a park. A hobo comes at her and asks:
"Do you want to make love?"
"Then why are you sitting on my bed?"

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Ow my fucking goodness I just found this site!

Its like...GOLD, really. This will be my 'bible' in learning anatomy and poses and all that!
I really needed something like this, but I never knew there was on the internet something THIS GOOD, I mean, fuck's sake! It's amazing!
Really...check it out.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Dreams gone wild ?!

 So in the past 3 days my dreams went really weird. (Here they are in chronological order)
    Dream 1  : So I had this dream that I was some kind of guide person thingy that showed some other pupils ,while being in a team with some of my other classmates) a building, the thing is, I don't know what that building was , it seemed like some sort of library/lab/factory/school thing (like the ones in videogames , when you enter a building that looks like a hospital or something and by the end of the level you're into some satanic shrine in some jungle) and me and my team were trying to escape (I don't know why) and we got to some puzzle room (something similar to the Tomb Raider ones) , so we solved the puzzle (that implied something like taking some piglets that looked like some balls to the top of the building -Bakugan much? xD -) and then we were able to get out. But when I was in front of the building, I saw some weird shit going on so entered the building, AGAIN (fuuuu...rere fuck I am) and there I met this freaky dicky dude (who reminded me of Alucard, from Hellsing, tho he didn't look like him at all, except he was really tall, but most of my male OCs and pretty much my male ideal is horribly tall) and we chit chatted some shit that I can't remember now and he just ,like, sticked one of his fingers/fingernails into another finger till blood started to come out (and I strangely felt that pain in one of my fingers as well) and he just sticked his bleeding finger in my mouth and told me something like "Clean it." or I don't know what shit... (So I assume my mind got kinky that moment. ._. ) and...then there were some kittens on a table (I ain't fucking around, that dude was going all kinky with me and I was looking at kittens) and then I woke up...My mind was in pain after that dream.
    Dream 2: So there was me and a bunch of friends and we found about some badass stone with powers and shit and we went all Scooby Doo, trying to find it and all that, and everything was so happy and shit, and we found some symbols and each symbol was some Power Ranger/ any stereotypical anime with superhero chicks and we were so happy and shit, but then these people started to hate me so they wanted to burn me alive (the fuck?) and I was really scared and shit... But the next second I was on the PC and everything on the web, on every site had some freaky Exorcist bitch on it, and that scared me. So I went to bed, and my mom was in my room, and when I was trying to explain her what I saw , she kept talking and not listening to me, so I got mad, and then some freaky naked exorcist/ring/ju-on chick appeared from nowhere and attacked me, and my mom was talking about this bitch like everything was all good in the hood, which kinda disturbed me, and after that, more bitches started coming and I was trying to fight them, punching and kicking and all that, but they kept coming and then I backed away and they were so many and fuck...so damn ugly and I knew they were about to attack me ...And I woke up, I was just looking at the ceiling and ...I was so cold, so damn cold, I remember my mind was black for about 10 seconds.
   Dream 3:So, the beginning is kinda weird, all scenes about these Asian people, all Jackie Chan, everything was happy like in a Jackie Chan movie, and action and shit and it was random, really, random scenes with random Asian people.
Then the Asian scenes got into a combo with some American style wanky ass teenage party all retarded and shit, and then it totally moved to the party, where this geeky guy was being humiliated and all that and there were all these pretty and stereotypical teenagers and I...So me, pissed to shit, I started threatening the fuckers like, if they don't let the geek be, I'm gonna go to their house and kill and cannibalize their mommas (too much Hannibal Lecter, I guess) and I told this bitch I'm gonna wait for her after school and when I see her I'm gonna cut her (I actually remember I said something like "I'mma cut you! I'mma CUT YOU!"). So I grabbed the geek and we started talking about video games and figurines and I really felt the need to hug him, and kiss him, all lovey dovey, but I didn't.  I just a thought about it. And since the party was in my crib (I don't know why), I knew shit about this place, so I started hearing noises and all that , and then I saw a kid with a slice of cake, and I knew the cake was in a pan (what...the..fuck...? Cake in pan?) so then I just knew they all wanted to attack me, therefore I got my ass in the kitchen, where I got a knife (more knives where missing, so I knew they wanted to kill me) so I got my knife and fuckers started coming with knives and shit, trying to kill me, but I stabbed them (I could actually feel the knife going in their bodies and felt them falling) and so on I killed a bunch of fuckers till the last bitch that came to attack me was actually this type of happy party chick all cool(stoned like) and shit, thinking this was a joke, but me, all fucked and shit, almost killed her, but realized she don't know what she doing so I just accidentally scratched her skin, where she realized shit is actually serious, so she gave her knife to the last person there and went away. And then there was this other kid, like a 5 year old kid (who got the knife) and I took the pan and went all "Motherfucker, get out, before I hurt you!" and he said something like "Violence isn't nice, I'mma go now." so I lifted him up so he can get out using the window (cause the fuckers came in the kitchen using the window) and then I woke up. But you see, in the battle, I got cut, my hand got cut pretty bad, and when I woke up, I still felt the pain in my hand for about 5 seconds. And I was hot, really, all sweaty and shit, it was horribly hot.

And , the good part about these dreams is that they have more sense (?) than my past dreams, and also that I move a lot faster. But still man...Its a weird change.

Excuse the wall of text.

Thursday, January 12, 2012


So, after thinking a while about it, I realized I barely eat any eggs.
So why not completely give up on them? I mean, I was a raging carnivore, and I could give up on meat one day  all of a sudden with no problem, therefore, I must be capable of giving up on eggs.
Milk is another story, I have calcium problems in my bones, and the calcium you find in drugstores isn't really my cup of tea, since its all chemicals and stuff.
But hey! Better a little something than nothing at all.

And school starts in 3 days. Snap.
Gotta do my homework. (Procrastinating procrastinator is procrastinating.)
But it ain't that hard! (Yaaay!)

Well that would be it. Hope you have a good day. xD

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Monday, January 2, 2012

Happy new year!

 So, first of all I want to wish everybody a happy new year...and hope we don't all die ... . _ .
 Second, I'd like to write down all my new year resolutions (dun dun dun) :
  •  Lose weight (about 4-7 kilograms).
  •  Live healthier.
  •  Keep being a vegetarian. xDD Duh...
  •  Learn to draw more realistic/ learn to draw manly men with muscles and all that. xD
 And that would kinda be all...Wish me luck!
 My holidays weren't so much of a big deal...I guess its cause 2011 wasn't that much of a good year, therefore celebrating something that sucked is kinda stupid.
 Well I have about 2 more weeks of free time then school starts again, but I'm not planning to do anything special during them...Maybe watch stuff on YouTube, fool around on Gaia Online and talk with friends.  Wonderful!
 The weather here is horrible, even if its cold, there is almost no snow at all. Only that horrible type of watery snow that everybody hates and in which you can't play at all.
 Even if I'm trying to be optimistic about this year, I don't actually think things will go so amazing...I mean, the main problem is the economy. In Europe, at least in Romania, its HORRIBLE, really. Also...snap...after school ends, I'm moving towns with my parents! D: Since my dad works in another town, money is a huge problem for us...And thats why me and my mom will move with him... So yeah...Well at least I'll have a new room = fun of redecorating and all that.
 I'm quite happy about the new year... I hope things will work out just fine .

  And that would be all...Again, Happy New Year! Hope you all had great holidays!